Inner Drive

3 weeks ago this past Saturday, I started P90X. I did not change my diet at all. I tried to, but I didn’t commit.

But isn’t weight loss all about commitment? Isn’t it reminding yourself, in your weakest of moments, why it is that you’re doing what you’re doing? This is something I neglected to do.

I’ve been following one-twenty-five.tumblr.com for a long time now, and I have to say, her most recent post hit home with me. I’m not sure what it was, but it changed the way I saw my roommate’s white chocolate truffles, chocolate cupcakes, and ice-cream cone cupcakes. I don’t need that stuff.

It hit me - I can be HAPPY while eating right and working out. It doesn’t need to be a miserable experience. I already know I love the feeling right after a workout, I love the sense of accomplishment and fulfillment, knowing I just did something really good for myself.

Why wouldn’t I want to feel like at every hour of the day? With the right foods and outlook on life, I can. It’s mind boggling to me that this all just hasn’t clicked for such a very, very long time.

I don’t need to be influenced by other other. I have the power to do anything I want with my life, and right now that power is to change the way I eat and view my life.

It’s not helping anyone if I eat 3 cupcakes in one sitting, or half a jar of frosting. Binging is probably the worst thing I can do to myself because my body can’t metabolize all that “nutrition” at once (namely, sugar and carbs).

Let today, April 23rd, 2012, be the day that I remind myself of the three simple solutions to being happy in my life.

Eat well. Exercise hard. Think forward.

So… I have definitely neglected this blogging. And blogging in general. I think I got scared of posting honest thoughts on my life and giving a real explanation of how things were going, especially when I knew they weren’t going well.

To be totally frank, these past few months have been a roller coaster of ups and downs. I’ve checked into tumblr often, and always considered coming back, but always seen to find an excuse as to why I shouldn’t. It’s like, I liked to idea of being a blogger, but when it comes down to it, I was too lazy to do it. The same way I was too lazy to fix my eating habits, or push myself during my workouts.

I’m not sure where I want to take this little blog, but I love reading others’. I might move to a different forum if I ever think of a concrete topic to blog about. :)

I do love healthy eating and opera. (Oh, and sweets.) Maybe I’ll think of something.

Ta for now.

I deserve to treat myself right.

Repeat that statement to yourself. That’s what I’m currently doing as I pop a piece of gum after my 430 calorie lunch salad to stop myself from eating anymore. I’m full, so it’s time to stop eating! I’ll get to eat again, without a doubt, by dinner time, right after my tri-weekly swim. Until then, I’ll let my tummy digest all the good stuff I just filled it up with - green peas, edamame, chickpeas, cottage cheese, romaine lettuce.

I deserve what is best for me.

Never limit yourself. Never feel like you should settle when you know you deserve more. Never forget that where there is a will, there is a way.

Set an alarm to ring every hour that says ‘No Sweets.’ This is the first successful day I’ve had in a long time. My goals for this week are no eating after dinner and no sweets. It seems restricting but I know I need to do this if I will ever succeed.

from motivation, to candy in my mouth. it’s like a never ending cycle. it’s like i have no control. it’s like i’m two different people.

feeling lost.

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STARTING THIS CHALLENGE & ALREADY ON DAY TWO. :)

The motivation is there, the support is there, it’s time for the pieces of the puzzle to fall together!